then I saw this video. Gina posted it on her blog. And I felt ill. I knew immediately that things were going to change.
Please take a minute to watch:
Then, I read this post by Sarah yesterday. It was like she read my heart, and much more eloquently than I could, put in into words.
What does this mean for the BeVelle family? Honestly, I don't know. How this will play out for our family is to be determined, but I have confidence that Nathan and I are going to come up with a solution that we both feel very comfortable with.
These are the few things I do know:
- I can't pretend to be okay with this any more.
- Honestly, for our family, Christmas is just the tip of the iceberg. Nathan and I have dreams of adopting a house-full of children to love. We dream of living more simply and donating any money we don't need. We dream of living a debt-free life within our means, and being satisfied with what we have, focusing not on what we do not have.
- It's in God's hands. He holds our future, and we need to not worry about our future, or present for that matter.
I want to end this blog with an apology and a disclaimer saying that I know this isn't feasible for every family, and that whatever you choose for your family is best and blah blah blah, but honestly I don't feel that way. I think this is something that should weigh heavily on the heart of every Christian, and I think that we need to quit pointing fingers or making half-attempts at giving and give until it hurts. I think we need to live radically. I'm a work-in-progress where all of these are concerned, and I pray that you'll consider it as well.