Wednesday, August 17, 2011

I'm Sorry

Dear D,

I'm sorry that one day you'll look back on baby pictures of you and see that there are no "professional" photos before age 6 months.

I'm sorry that I haven't gotten you a bunch of cute new clothes like I did for your brother, and that most days you hang out in a diaper.

I'm sorry that, at almost 6 months old, I still feed you a bottle when you wake up in the middle of the night because it is too heartbreaking to do CIO when your daddy isn't here to help me be strong.

I'm sorry that you are behind Manning in motor skills because I spend a lot of the day pre-occupied with him so I can't encourage and help you to learn as quickly.

I'm sorry that you don't get to go to the great babysitter that taught Manning so many things.

I'm sorry that your daddy isn't here to tell you how precious you are and how much he loves you everyday, but know that he does.

Dear M,

I'm sorry that I'm not as patient as I should be with you all the time.

I'm sorry that I'm inconsistent with discipline because I'm still trying to figure out what works best for you.

I'm sorry that we don't "go bye bye" every time you ask to.

I'm sorry that daddy can't be here right now to spend time with you.

I'm sorry that some days I cry and worry I'm not doing a good enough job.

I'm sorry for sometimes letting you watch more tv than I should so I can get something done or have a minute for myself.

Dear Nate,

I'm sorry I don't blog more & post more pics.

I'm sorry you have to be away.

I'm sorry you have the burden of supporting our family.

I'm sorry you don't get a day off.

I'm sorry you have to eat chow every meal.

I'm sorry for not doing special things for you more often when you're home.

Dear self,

I'm sorry I'm so hard on you.








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7 comments:

  1. This post brought tears to my eyes. I can't tell you how much we appreciate your husband's service and the sacrifices your family is making so that our family can sleep peacefully every night. Sending big, big grateful hugs to you and your boys.

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  2. Kodi, you are such a great mom and wife! You do not need to be sorry for anything. When your boys look back they are going to be so thankful for sacrifices that you and Nate made for them and what a great childhood they had! I can't imagine how hard it is for you doing it by yourself-you are so strong! Thinking of you!
    -Ashley

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  3. Oh, Kodi. This post made my heart hurt. You are such an awesome, amazing, incredible woman! Wife and Mom, too! Like Kristen said, words will never express how grateful we are for Nate's service to our country- How he selflessly sacrifices not only himself but so much more- and how you, too, are doing the same thing. Just in a different setting.. Hugs to you, friend.. :)

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  4. You are an amazing mom and wife!!! We appreciate your husband more than you’ll know and his sacrifice. Hang in there, girl!!! Love ya :)

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  5. Hey girl, take it a little easier on yourself. You are a good mom, good wife and good person. Hang in there, Nate will be home and under your feet before you know it. And, in the meantime, you'll figure out how to appreciate it all a little more.
    Miss ya girl.
    D

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  6. Everything everyone else said...except with a little more love and a big hug! You are doing what you can, and you are doing a DAMN good job. (and I don't "swear" often, so you know I mean it...muahaha) Breathe.

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  7. Beautiful post. You are doing a fantastic job. Also? Thanks for making me feel good about the fact that my kids go to day care. I truly believe that it's the best place for them and I didn't think a single SAHM out there understood.

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