Missing

I've been a little bit missing around here, but not because I don't have a lot to write about. Here's the truth: until recently I thought of this blog as my "safe place" to be honest...a place to write about anything and everything that was on my heart. Then, without a whole lot of consideration, one day I linked a blog post to my facebook. My personal facebook page. The one where pretty much every person I have ever met IRL is my "friend". And so it began...my IRL friends, acquaintances, friends' parents, former teachers etc started to read my blog. Some of them started telling me they loved my blog. Some of them said they don't get blogging...and some of them just lurked. :) One person even found the "courage" to start sending me hateful e-mails about how fake I am. Nope, not fake. They just don't know the real me.

I really have nothing to hide, and I really am pretty bold in person so it's not like I hide behind my laptop screen and write things I'd be way too chicken to say in public. That's not it at all. It's just a little expository to write your heart and soul for everyone to read without getting even a glimpse into what many of them think about it, or getting a glimpse into their lives. I've had people tell me that they do not understand why women read blogs of women they've never met, let alone consider them friends. First, I'd say that it isn't really for anyone to understand. Second, I'd venture to say that I know most of my "blog friends" better than I know most of my IRL friends, and vice versa.

So, that is where I'm at. Struggling to find balance about how much I can and want to share knowing that my cousins and friends and my parents' co-workers are reading. I think I'll probably still share most of what I would share before because I just am who I am. I am passionate about many things, and I am open about most things.

What about you? Have any of you other bloggers ever felt this vulnerability?

If you're reading this and you know me IRL (in real life) please, don't be shy! Leave a comment to let me know!